Feel

You dont have to be told. U can just feel it. everything about it. The stare, the smile. Sigh...the real tests are finally here. Brace yourself for what lies ahead is unknown but yet not undefeatable. Please please i pray that You will hold on to me forever.

Yet this doesn't come individually.It comes in a bundle of pain. It comes and tries to consume me. Testing my patience, stretching me to my limits. And when no hope was left inside, the devil comes and relentlessly showers me with more pain.

Its so hard it really is. But if this is the Calling, if this is true, then i'll stand up and go through this again. i'm so weak really i am...decisions i cannot make. I can neither speak well or have any talent. if this comes true surely it is You. save me once again as i cry out to you tonight.

I'm walking out of this alive.