Argh!

right now i feel uber sad and frustrated. argh why is god like putting me through all these trials and tribulations?! it is seriously quite hard to handle, especially for me who is still not that spiritually matured yet. i mean how am i to handle people who wanna jump ship to another church which she has not even gone to yet?!

HopeChurch is an awesome church that does the will of God!!! A church that doesn not expand is a church that does not grow!! God wants His church to grow!!!! ahhh!!! I have truely seen the amount of time invested just on one soul and i would really say that Hopechurch doesnt just want people, they want people who have a heart for God!!

Argh sorry i'm just filled with sorrow to the point of death now.

My dad just left for Genting Highlands today. His company people wanna go casino or something...but i trust ma daddy wont gamble, afterall he is quite decent.
Sometimes my dad says stuff that is from the bible but he interprets it wrongly. and, it somehow influences my elder sis lor!! i mean although i try to correct him, sometimes he stubbornly wont listen and i as a son really, do not have the authority to do anything else.

Now i really really need someone who i can really talk to heart to heart man!! maybe God but i wanna hear his voice!!! I think i'm spiritually quite down now.

Argh yesterday during prayer meet, Eelee said something that really really spoke to me. She prayed that we will have a new zeal and passion for god again. and THAT is what i really really need now. when i heard what she prayed for us, i was like " Surely its god now!! cannot deny!!" i really turned by face against the wall ( i was sitting right at the corner ) and i really hard prayed lor!! argh god!!

Sighhhh...cover me within ur mighty hands.