Waves of Sorrow

Right so i didnt have the best ever day. I was getting stick the whole day. Vera is sick, people are falling away. Its just so hard to talk to anyone now. Have you forsaken me?

So i skipped my break so that i could do some planning on the games for Care group today for i was to lead one game! It was exciting!! hahaha i was so ready to make everyone happy!! I kinda had to do it in school cause i accidentally fell asleep last night argh!! hahaha. But yeah i skipped my break and i didnt eat anything until 4.30pm haha. Not even a sip of water.

So i rushed all the way to Serangoon after meeting Raphael for some admin stuff. and on the train, i started cutting out all my topic cards! hahaha. well i reached there and john asked us how we felt about today in 3 words. i said " Disappointed, Excited, tired" Yes i am very tired, physically and mentally drained. i dunno whats happening now! i'm confused. well i didnt talk much today. i didnt know what to say. seriously for once.

My legs were aching my toe was hurting. i was just not in the mood. and i would say care group did perk me up abit. but the worse was still to come. anyway alvin blessed me with 2 plain bread. ahhh. So i asked John about our new believer, whether to visit him or not ( he injured his head ) So after CG and Prayer meet we went down to woodlands. and my legs were hurting but thats not the point, i came with great expectations and i was so excited!

So we went there and met him below his block, me and jon. so he came down and we greeted each other. then we passed him some fruits and liang cha....means cooling tea la. He was like " Hey u guys like that make me feel very bad. But i wanna say clearly, i really cant join ur christian buddies" i mean...i was devastated!! He truely enjoyed our company i could tell but due to certain family reasons, he rejected god. I'm so sad now that this has happened. He was a very responsive dude and i really believed we would retain him!! I looked over to jon, i could see his eyes tearing. Yet he was trying his utmost to look happy and he kept saying " Hey its okay la" but serioulsy, it wasnt okay. just that at that time, we really didnt know what to say!!

God come save me now. all my troubles come and take them away!!!

So karen called me after school. i talked to her on my handy and she asked " Would u like to join the Turtle Parachute comepetition?" well i didnt really wanna join BUT only because she was so bold to ask me, i agreed. i just wanted to make her work a joy, not a burden anyway. Yay Nicholas see i applied the shepherding teaching hahahah!!

Oh yeah and Joe called to tell me that i was accepted into ushering!! ahHH!!! YES YES YES! hahaha. i'm so happy! hahaha. but not now la...haha now still very sorrowful argh!