Gasp!!

oh gosh im like super duperly nervous about tomorrow man. really hope i can invite a friend to service!! gosh more often than not, i tend to hold back. well i guess i fear rejection and stuff...i dont really comprehend the thoughts that run through my mind but yeahh hahaa...

the problem now is this : satan is corrupting and polluting me with his evilness. he instills fear in me. he steals the little confidence i have and contains my passion. unknowingly, i lose the battle that i have been fighting for so long. its such a shame that i crumble so easily without much of a resistance.

but now, i'm so sure the tables will be turned. because god has been moving! its just so awesome to see people's life change. and its JUST SO TRUE that a word from god can change everything. my sheeps have been awesome lately. i just cant thank god enough. god rescued everything. and now i truely understand that this group belongs to the Lord God Almighty who is ever so faithful to the ones he holds so dear.

well, i have to admit that in recent times, i hadnt been giving my best to the Lord. but god reminded me that i have to really start serving him with all my heart and mind and soul. that this is the time, i deny every emotion and tiredness. this is the time, i shake off every leech than clings on me and to start serving the lord with the same Passion and Hunger that i used to so naturally possess. i want to grow. and i know that GOD will bless my every attempt.

Lord i will obey you with all my life so that i can take possession of the land you are giving me.