I want!!

hahaha so today was quite a...okay day la. i mean i've been complaining about yjc like crazy already lor...i can still go on but i'm too sick of it liao haha. actually its not such a bad place...really it isnt...hahaha. yeah anyway met some crazily scary teachers today. MRS CHEN. INSANE hahaha. she looks like some Home economics teacher convert to chemistry teacher. super...fierce look. yeah and shes fierce too. hahaa not like we gonna burn down the class with an open stove right? hahahaha

BUT YEAH CARE GROUP WAS AWESOME!!! hahaha. i dunno if i played my part well but YAY!! YJC got 2 NewB join us!! and AJC side got one! Awesome can?!! haha i wish they all retain!!! then we can break NEE!!! so proud of us hahaha!! then next time i can tell everyone " HEY i was the pioneer of NEE" haha so cool right?! lol.

Man contacts come on please please respond to me!! BAHAHAHA. so despo eh i...hate this lol. but its okay i love this " i hate this" feeling hahaha. Aiyah anyway its time i gave my best for my PAPA already what...if not i'll be like some ungrateful brat. hahahaha.
WISH LIST

1. Grow in God.
2. Walk closer to God!
3. Get some sheeps!!( MAHAHAHAHA)
4. Make jon tay skinny
-now time for my material wants hahahahha-
4. A Pullover from some surf shop!!
5. A converse shoe that is DARK BLUE AND ORANGE!! ( awesome this one)
6. A white fat converse shoe haha i dunno whats the name. hehehe
7. A new Bag. hahaha i really need this one hahaha

Now all He have is gone

I know...i know i can deal with the pain. hahaha argh i miss SAJC!! theres like aircon everywhere there!! the hall is so big!! ahh!! i want SAJC!!

Argh too bad for me hahaha. God dont allow =) Oei PAPA one more day in SA pleasee?!! hahahaha. okay la nevermind forget forget forget forget forget!! haha

Yesterday was easter service ahh!!!! was ushering!! its so fun la hahaha. but sadly my contact PANG SEH me. argh why why why why why why why?!! hahaha. actually i hate being pang sehed. i mean i've never ever been pang sehed before. IN FACT alwasy is people ask me out one. argh! i never ever had to ask anyone out i never needed to initiate!!! now i'm like some desperate guy arghyyy! hahaha. aiyah nevermind la for god these is sooo small lol.

AHH coldplay is quite nice actually haha i JUST heard their songs!! so deprived eh? hahaha.
Hahah gotta go do followup soon eh i think i better go change and pray now hahaha.

- from cool toooooooo Pang Sehed Kia- but all for the audience of one - and i love it -

Easter Harvest

Easter Harvest Easter Harvest Easter Harvest all the hard work we put in oh god let us reap the Harvest this time god!! ahhh!!!!

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My heart wont rest until i send it.
Yet abandoned it is not,
But the box is empty.

Last night i went out with SIHAN RAYSON MARTIN!!! supposed to go hang with contacts sadly sihan's friends last min pang seh him...so sad....SIIIHHAANN SIHHAANN!! why am i screaming his name again?! so sick...hahaha

Then at night i went to...oh my...GIDIAN's house!! ahhhh!! hahaha. love gidian la he is so cute. i love jon tay la he is so...hmm...eccentric.. hahahaha. so funny can?!!

Then today we had quiettime together and totally slacked the whole day at RC hahaha. so ...erm....uninteresting day really hahaha.
Man i'm missing my SA friends now and i got lots of stuff to plan already. i hope my guys have a good nights rest for tomorrow!!

And i'm currently quite disturbed over some stuff. aiyoh how? the real trials are coming soon. but i dunno when!! but god if it will grow me then throw it all at me!! Lord i'm ready to carry the burden!!

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So today in school...its like the lastest day of the term and haha some sterling clowns came and gave us some talk which i was quite interested in...until i fell asleep because i already knew what they were teaching. Something about Civil Engineering. i kinda like it but due to the lack of sleep last night hahahah...fell asleep for awhile lol!!!

SO then we met our seniors after school!! awesome bunch of people. espeically my angel. i mean she is awesome. the most beautiful angel i can ever have!!!! hahahaha. then later we went to macs to eat with em!! stuff got a little draggy actually and i was quite disappointed with how my people acted but.... hhahaha i managed to get em there! YES! hahahaha. Oh yeah my angel organised the whole thing!! shes great!

Then i went for prayer meet!! man i love my brothers can?!! and luanx was listening to old songs....argh. like super old 3 years ago or more. NO! more like 4-5 years lol. goo goo dolls...aiyoh... hahaha but they are good la hahaha.

Then i went to some playground with my beloved sihan and martin!!! and i improved my guitar skills there while we talked. some spiritual things. we shared some stuff. i love sihan and martin!! i love all my care group members!!! SIIHHAAANNN hahahaha. why am i even screaming sihan's name...so sick hahahaha. *bish myself* hahahaha

Argh guys i'm gonna miss you all so much!!! man now i really regret not getting to know each and every one of you as much as i wanted to. i really regret not showing the kind of love i wanted to show to phil and cher. but just that...i'm human. theres not enough time!!! JOEY!!! ahhhh!! gonna miss joey and vera when i leave man!! hahahahaha. MISS JOEY!! sound like some girl hahaha.

OKay anyway i hope my bestest ever flower pot person will have a revival and be boosted once again by GOD! jesus come save our souls.

to all of you

To everyone who is viewing my blog right now, i wanna say....I LOVE YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU OVER THERE AND YOU HERE AND YOUUUU!!!! yes you!!

To You

Dedicated to you ( know who? ) You la dumb dumb!!

When you get lonely if no one's around.
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down.

We came together but you left alone.
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own.

Maybe someday I will see you again.
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your FRIEND.

Why worry and be bothered by so many things?
Let tomorrow worry for itself.
I know you can do it!
Just smile!

Your Dear Thad.

I am no more.

The moment that I got back my results, I killed myself. I am no more.

You reminded me how weak I am on my own. I was flyng high and you brought me back down to earth. I stumble in every step I take.

Now, I am Yours.

Broken, Shattered i lie.

And I can’t stand the pain.
And I can’t make it go away.
No I can’t stand the pain!!

How could this happen to me??!!
I made my mistakes!!
I’ve got no where to run!!!
The night goes on
As I’m fading away....
I’m sick of this life!!
I just wanna scream!!
HOW could this happen to ME????!!!!

And I can't explain what happened.
And i can't erase the things i've done!
NO I CAN'T!!
I wanna start this over again!

Goodbye to you've been wasting all my time!!
Your no longer mine!!

...but now you've left me...i cant seem to get you off my mind.