Worth?

i must say this is the coolest picture i have currently. but similar to all you fickle human beings, its value( to me) would probably plumment soon after.

and as i look at this here, a testament to my cheongsuaness, i wonder, was it really worth it? was it worth all the blood, all the sweat and all the tears? There is seriously so much pride in this. but like what a close friend said, i cant eat pride can i?

and now here i am on a nice 2nd day of cny wondering if me and many others could do the same for something of far greater significance. it makes the effort to get my tab seemingly of little importance. are we ready and willing to sweat, tear and bleed? are we willing to be a 100 percenter in His community whose purpose and vision far exceeds our grandoise yet selfish ambitions. can we commit to plans to prosper us and not to harm us? can we trust that everything else will be given to us because He cares for us?

God is so good, yeah we can.

MAN

well this season is the season for "man". we got Ironman, Batman, Yes man, I P man. now, even Guardsman! heard from my sheep another "man" show is coming up again so i'm just counting down the days where we will finally get bored of all this man thing. they need more creative titles!!

well one week in the jungle i've learnt, its true, it takes some fear to make you trust. and that really reminded me about the whole idea regarding moving out of our comfort zone. yeah it makes you trust when you're uncertain. i learn to rely when i learn that i am weak!

on a side note, i'm crazy over cooking new stuff! im gonna cook my very own carrot cake soon. doesnt seem like a big messy affair BUT BUT BUT it actually requires somekinda culinary know-how. and as a jamie oliver wannabe, i certainly do have that in abundance! or at least THE POTENTIAL OF THAT in abundance! went to the bookstore to read cookbooks after lunch, i feel like i can tornado around the kitchen and randomly sprinkle herbs and spices on anything and it will all taste good!!

perhaps getting a chef hat would be useful for me. if my food isnt good, chances are i could still pull it off by looking pro!

2009

in a few hours i'll be back in no-man's-land. i dont like that place!

had a series of retreats this week. clm,ulm and then jcclm. all of which were a good time to reflect upon year 2008. God's faithfulness has definitely been evident in what would have probably been a disaster year for me. He has been a constant source of encouragement and strength in times of struggle. His presence felt so strongly in times of loneliness. I am humbled by his grace and mercy everyday.

So i look forward to 2009! Boy its gonna be tougher and busier this year. In my heart of hearts i truely hope that i would constantly remember God in everything i do.

may many lives be touched and transformed this year!