life can sometimes be quite tiring. my past regrets haunt me. my shame condemns me. My inadequacy discourages me and my lack of success disappoints me. i whine incessantly and i grumble all the time. i have unfulfilled desires and tonnes of temptations distract me. in the words of paul,

" For i have the desire to do what is good, but i cannot carry it out. For what i do is not the good i want to do; no, the evil i do not want to do-this i keep on doing."

in short, i'm at the mercy of my sins.

but thankfully thats not the full story. i am also continually at the mercy of God's grace, his love and his power. thank god that while sin is contagious, so is laughter and joy and love.

god's goodness cannot co-exist with my fallenness. so may i become more like jesus!