The Train

It all seems so fast. I was just standing along the rails when a i saw an oncoming train. A hand stuck out from its carraige. It grabbed me while the train sped by and soon i found myself on board. My destination? i dont know. Then, my carraige leader shouted, " matthias get to the front now!!" " sir why me? the train is long. its a long way to the front. get someone nearer..." " no, you go!!" so i went and when i opened the door to the front, i saw the train captain. i grabbed a shovel and started to heap coals into the furnace " where are we going my lord?" he turned and smiled at me " just keep heaping on the coals, dont worry" somehow i felt assured that the captain definately knew what he was doing. i continued to add the fuel that would drive the train. for once, i'm driving on without knowing where i am going.

Green once again!!

WEEE!! really happy now!! haha my parents just got back from malaysia after like one whole long long long week. Ma Great grandmama passed away you see....*sobs*....anywayss....haha their back!! im like super hopeless on my own...cant really wash clothes this kinda thingy...somemore must take care of Sesame and her friends ( her poop) and i was like super drained during the whole week.
thankgod for god who was there with me all the way to give me strength. Thank god for transforming my sister!! without her i would have certainly perished in the relentless onslaught of shit bombs being throwed at me!! * stares at sassy*

Anyway when my parents came back, 6.30 am ( my dog woke me up ), i just ran and hugged both of them. it was like i was fighting at Helms deep and Gandalf ( or whatever) came back in his beautiful steed to save the day!! hahah my dog too was really excited!! so glad they are back. I realised that i often take what they do for me for granted. sure i know they love me...but the actions behind the love is so much more than that. after one week being a part-time parent, i truely understand its not easy...hahaha.

Same for god. sometimes i tend to take his blessings and love for granted. sometimes i even feel i deserve it!! but really, without god, i'll be as hopeless as a bird without wings, a tiger without teeth...erm a pig without fats? hahas. But thank god god will never ever have to take a leave to visit some dead person and abandon me and!! at least i know he'll always be there for me! and i truely appreciate it =)

hahah okay. restructuring was finally annouced yesterday. haha kinda worried actually? hahaha junliang and rayson keep giving me stress hahahahas. wow in fact this is the first time im actually walking without knowing where to go!! but i trust that my god is an awesome god who will guide me. =D guess i've been very comfortable and protected for too long!! come to think of it, i've done nothing to deserve to have this today. only by the awesome grace of god did he give it to me. perhaps i'm not the best dude around but i'll definately give it my best shot. haha

OH yah and i really wanna buy shoes!! hahaha. been wanting it since like ...so long hahaha. okay anyway im outt hahaha. god bless NEE2 who are going on to greater heights!!!

- clings on to the feet of god -