whoahaha i got like 5 mins to blog something down haha. anyway, the start of a new week. that means more work, more trainings, less sleep. today was quite a tough day for myself. had 4 and a half hours of power in lesson. marathon lessons day!! haha. always feel so stress after class for some reason. probably cause i dont know my work well enough!!

whoa i gotta prepare for tutorials tml and i still gots training!! grrr haha that means i'm gonna be so dead tomorrow!! lord thanks for today but i so so need your help big time tomorrow man! goodness.

anyway eevoon asked me some question yesterday. " are you still passionate about ushering?"
hahaha lol. it was JUST TOO EASY to give a 10 year series answer and smack that right in her face( which would be lying to a certain degree?). hahaha but i decided to go for the honest approach instead =)

truth is that sometimes i may feel tired. sometimes i may feel a little drained. its hard to find specific goals that will totally captivate your mind and soul sometimes that you feel so energetic and excited everyday. but somehow i have a rough idea of what god has created me for. i'm clear of my calling and i'm certain that god has called me into this area of ministry at least for now. i stand firm in my decision to serve in ushering and i know that i really like to be involved in such things!! feelings are rather unpredictable sometimes =) so with my mind, i choose to give my best.

after that she shared a little more to me and i guess i was realy human afterall!! i found it really beneficial for myself to have this kinda little mini reflection station nation patient ( IT RHYMES) thingy... it broadens my perspective and understanding about myself and my own feelings! so thank god she asked!

okay my time is up. gotta leave for tutorials!! till then. see ya guys!!

unkind? haha

hey guys finally back after a long week! had service today!! performed for the ESS as part of the band competition thingy =D. thankgod it turned out well. a pity we didn't win la but i got 1 convert so i guess it writes over everything else!! hahaa. so glad that jethro decided to make the step into the kingdom of god. the truth is that i myself have not seen god yet or anything. but sometimes god works in such mysterious ways that i have to admit he is so real and he is somewhere out there.

sometimes i try so hard to stare into the air or sky or whatever just to see if i could catch a glimspe of god. like maybe in the form of some...white smoke or maybe in the clouds!! i used to stare into the clouds to see if he was hiding there looking at us!! hahaha. okay i know he's there. he is somewhere. i'm gonna see him one day i'm sure. =) goodness i'm curious!

You and I,
We never had it easy baby.
We had to work so hard...

And everytime,
Feels like we're gonna make it.
Thats when it falls apart....

hahahaha. when ppl start blogging about songs, you know they are feelings emo!! hahaha. well anyway, haha just changed my blog song again. i really liked that previous song BUT, this new song is a preview of what we are doing this saturday hahaha. sneak peek ehh?!! hahaha. but i'm gonna go emo again after this week with that previous song again hahaha. i bet some of u guys are coming my blog just to hear it hahahah!! wanna guess whats the song?!! hahaha.

my parents and sister are in thailand now haha. that leaves me alone at home with SASSY and my elder sis =D. the new car is coming on thursday!! goodness i cant wait to learn how to drive hahaha. OHOH Sassy has been looking depressed ever since my parents left hahaha. i think she misses them AWWW.... so cute ehh? haha.

i call her DOGNUT. because she is a dog and she is nuts =D but more importantly, it reminds me of donuts!! hahaha and donuts make me hungry!! anyway i'm bored so some important facts about me:

1- 15 june 1988 ( my bday laahss haha. i want a BMW 7 series. the biggest car ever k?!!)
2- June 2004 ( thats when i first came to church!! didnt really commit until around dec 2004)
3- Arsenal ( avid supporter)
4- favourite band: MCFLY
5- i used to be a softballer.
6- My friends call me Josh Harnett
7- i like the beatles but i dont like drugs haha
8- i can't dance well =) hahaha
9- used to be a taekwondo black belt in 1998 ( OKAY FINE JUNIOR BLACK BELT hahaha)
10- expertedly and illegally punched someone's face in a taekwondo competition in order to win.
11- loves dogs.
12- i enjoy cooking.
13- i love singing in the shower!! =D
14- my love language TOUCH and TIME lol.
15- i'm 51kg and 174cm tall.

with these 15 facts about me, YOU can learn to be an effective friend of mine =) aiyah goodness i dont even know why i wrote all that hahaha. okay nvm lol i wanna go eat!

- i still got so many unsaid things that i wanna say. and i just cant wait another day! i wish she knew. erm...woooooo!!-

and finally today marks the end of the most stressful week in my entire jc career. so many times i've been almost at breaking point. sleeping like 4 hours at night and having lessons till 5 and then soccer training till 8.30!!! thank god who saw me through this!!! anyway it has been terrible this week, could not have been worst!! haha all the tonnes and tonnes of work and stuff... lol. therefore, i shall change my blog song into something more emo! ahha actually i just really wanna see how the contrast of the blog skin and music will affect my blog in anyway lah!! hahaha.

ohoh!! just receieved an sms " Hey Dude, you have been recalled into the National squad. Please be prepared tomorrow at 7.40 on the pitch ready. goodnight!" WHOAA!!! hahaha like finally la!!! after being injured for a while hahaha its good to be back to start my debut match tomorrow. i'm seriously so tired now man!! and i gotta rush for svc tml too haha. woah really pray that god will protect me tml from any injuries. just got punched on wednesday by a teammate accidentally. woah been feeling super giddy for teh past few days. on wed night, my left eye became blur and stuff!! I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE. but seriously i cant die laa... hahahaha. my death would mean a direct loss to society's welfare. my unexistence would inccur deadweight loss to the society. meaning society loses out on the potential benefits that they could have had should i still be living. =D

thus, my existance proves vital to the livelihood of the rest of mankind!!! hahaha. but seriously, on wed, i really really thought i was going to be an ex-person. thank god that now i'm still...erm...a person!! hahaha. goodness corny joke lol...

ESS is coming soon. really hope the performance would be a good one. really scared too cause i got lots of work and little time to practise!! okay i gotta go now. go sleep and prepare for tml's match. i still cant decide which boots to wear. its always FASHION vs COMFORT. but i think fashion will come first tomorrow so i guess Total 90 will get the go ahead =D. its important to look good on your big day see HAHAHA. okay see you all. TAG MY BLOG. lol.

dieeee

woah woah super tired. just abit about what has been going on. had soccer training on sat morning. had to rush down to service and was late!!! had leg cramps on the way lol. never do cooldown stretching!!

gotta wake up super early everyday so that i can reach school at 7. i actually wake up at 5!! lol. anyway soccer has been super crazy these few days. on sat, i didnt even have time to style my hair and i had to rush for svc!! haha then had soccer yesterday too!! woah yesterday super cheong. wake up at 5 go school play outdoor games then went for a mini DAY CAMP!! something like obs until i was super DUPER tired!! then had to rush down to soccer training AGAIN at 5.15. ended at 8.30pm!! and i didnt even take dinner lol!! was already dead and dizzy by then!!

today is my rest day and it is also roughly the end of being an OGL. haha. i kinda like my class really...gonna miss em....OH YAH tml still have soccer training!! and on friday too!! and on sat morning there is a match!! i think i'm gonna die physically man. like seriously i losing tons of weight!

wah lao just realised soccer is taking up alot of my time man. irritating!! but thank god whenever i go out to the field, he is always there for me =). sometimes i get so tired during training, i just feel like collapsing. like heart very pain like that. my legs get wobbly and i cant think straight!! but before every training, i would always say a short prayer for god's stength and protection to be upon me!! so far so good. i'm improving. the coach thinks i pass beautifully!!! haha but still i'm a little TAUGAY compared to the rest of the big boys la haha. they sweep me off my feet easily!

gonna have a tiring day ahead tml. i really gotta rest now haha. oh yah been wanting to write a song for my classmate who passed away recently ( omg sobs) but i really cant find the time or the TUNE!!! so goodbye for now. god you bless me in the day ahead!!

BROCCOLI

AH HAH!! haha my blog finally has a song. was trying to find some cute song to fit my blog skin LOL. okay i try another one later lol. for now this song sounds rather lame at the start! haha which i like!! haha. its called Broccoli =D. the bridge is REALLY nice so do listen further! hahaa. woah i'm so happy my blog got a song now lol hahaha.

Carperpetuation

Carperpetuation : The process of running over a piece of string on a carpet dozens of times with a vacumn cleaner before finally picking it up with your hand to anaylse it and then putting it back down on the carpet to give the vacumn cleaner a second chance.

I'm a serious victim of carperpetuation!! lol. always happens when i try to vacumn stuff ( thats when i even bother to do so lol ) hahaha. anyway its not really a word. its just a word that should have been a word but is not!! aiyah lol hahaha.

I'm going Mcfly crazy now!! just came back from jamming with shawn, kai and lun. 5 colours in her hair. hahaha =D super crazy! the song is RIGHT AT THE EDGE of my vocal range already. i feel like i'm gonna burst if i go somemore lol!! hahaha. anyways, we dont usually jam often. we only jam if there is something to jam for. other than that, we are good boys who stay at home to study LOL hahaha. so this has been my first jamming session ever since after metamorphosis when we did BE MY ESCAPE lol... super funny that one hahahaa.

Oh yah first day of school day. I'm an OGL. quite fun la ppl quite eccentric. there is this girl from my OG who kept entertaining herself. like...talk to herself and stuff... LOL super weird!! hahaha. got to know this new guy called andy lol. seems like a nice guy. hope to spend more time together tml. thank god!

i cant think of anything else right now other than mcfly lol. so...MCFLY!!

lamebrocolli!!

woah goodness for some reason my heart feels a little heavy today, especially the night time lol.
somehow or another, i felt like i missed my dad alot....SOOO, when he was playing with the dog after dinner, i went to join him, just spend some time together. as he played with the dog and stuff, i could only see the side of his face. and yet even as i looked at him, i just wanted so much to tell him how much i treasure him. his hair is getting all grey and white and stuff. woah i need to see this man, MY DAD, in heaven mannn....lol... hahaha.

anyway lol ahhh hahaha people are tagging my blog again man LOL. BUT, theres still more who didnt!!!! my blog got some special device that detects non-tagging blog readers....scared now?? better tag... lol... hahaha.

Had unit meeting today. led worship with the guitar. haven been doing this in awhile!!! quite rusty after the long lay off from cg actually hahaha. but then again god never fails to bless =) i thought it went well but i really really need to brush up my worship leading, skills, knowledge and even spritual life if i want to be more effective.

thank god for the dynamic group i'm in now. somehow god is just so real now. i'm more often logical than emotional but somehow, my mind agrees with my heart. something different than before the camp!

OHOH...i realised i forgottened to blog about the camp lol. personally, camp enabled me to view god in a new perspective. truth is that sometimes god appears to be just a concept to me. but now god is more real. god is bigger, god is more alive!! hahaha. OH YAH!! northeast also won the soccer event!!! in which i played in laaa... ( HAHAH IT MUST BE ME)

i mean seriously, without me, northeast gotta kiss their trophy goodbye and it would go to east or something lol. i held the midfield together, passed the ball with such fluency that you would have thought i was david beckham!! all i had to do is to put on blue contacts and u wont even tell the difference lol hahahaha...

hahaha but paiseh la if i dun win. haha from soccer ehhh...i was counting the cost of losing and i realised lun and bunny and blah is gonna suan me like nobody's business hahahaha. the games were quite competitive. in fact some people ( including me!!) went berserk!! it was like a frenzy!! everyone was trying to hack each others legs off!!!! hahaha. the east match was the most heong one lol. but anyway we did apologise to each other later laaa =D i mean we are guys lol play game sure got this kinda thingy one la hahah.

the paiseh thing was that my team was all in FULL GEAR. i was wearing long socks, shins and boots LOL!! i thought everyone was wearing it!! until we went there and saw ppl just wearing shoes lol... if lose already ppl will laugh LOLLLL goodness...

woah dunno why suddenly talk so much about soccer. okay i gotta go rest. tml needa prepare for pm hahaha. thankyou lord for the yj grp, for allowing me to serve you, for my family and for making me AWESOMELY FIT AND MACHO ( LOL!!!! JEALOUS RIGHT?!!)